The Stupid, The Proud ♪ IAMX
IAMX; Quiet the mind.
Your Joy Is My Low ♪ IAMX
Muscle Museum ♪ Muse
Panic Station ♪ Muse
Invincible ♪ Muse
Undisclosed Desires ♪ Muse
Bye Bye Baby ♪ Temposhark
Allie Brosh and Hyperbole and a Half are back after a year and a half of internet silence. That’s incredibly good news for people who like awesome things.
I point this out for two reasons:
- It contains one of the best evolutionary biology illustrations of all time (above), about how we are at the end of a long line of things that successfully avoided getting chewed to death.
- It is one of the greatest explorations and personal stories of depression and mental health that I have ever seen, and should really be read by every single damn person on Earth.
I can relate to much that is covered in that blog entry… And I couldn’t find the words to explain it, it’s not quite there but it’s better than what I have done.
I am not exactly like that, anxiety conflicts with feelings of depression, but I do feel like I’ve got this void, I’m wandering this endless wasteland of bullshit and struggles, and sometimes things seem pointless or trivial. I am trying, but I hit rock bottom each time trying doesn’t work. I’ve been trying for years and nothing ever comes out of it, it’s a pointless waste of time, and I don’t even know why I keep trying or keep hoping this time, for sure. With each failed attempt, I feel even more hopeless than I did originally.
University, another apprenticeship - These are my last shot at life. Sometimes I do think it’d be better if I died because I wouldn’t have to deal with this bullshit. My wasteland is filled with holes of shit that I keep accidentally jamming my feet into.